Drowning

Right now I feel as though I'm swimming in the middle of the ocean, slowly losing the energy to keep going.  Each day I feel a little more pull, and pretty soon I'm going to be completely submerged in the water.  The good news is, I am reminded of the story where Jesus called the man to walk on water, and he did.. but when he lost faith he began to sink.  Even after he had lost that faith, Jesus pulled him up before he could drown.  That story gives me hope, because that's like my life.  I have trusted God in the past, and with that faith I've been able to do great things.  And yet here I am today with no faith; drowning.  Therefore I know what I need to do.  I need to call on God to save me from myself and help me to walk on water again.  So many times I have pleaded with God to save me, but I put little effort into it myself.  Sure, I tell myself I'll change tomorrow.  But what about today?  Isn't the best time to change the here and now?  If I really want to be forgiven, if I'm really sorry, why wait until tomorrow?  So right here, right now, I am asking You to save me once again.  But this time I'm going to do my part as well.  I am going to work at this as though my life depends on it, because it does.